And finally I realized that I could be with a man and, furthermore, consider having a future with someone other than Mark.
So, while my first attempt at a relationship after my husband did not end up as I had wanted, it was an experience that greatly furthered my healing and growth.
That question can only be answered by someone who have visited the other side of the world (life after death experiences) and have seen what is happening there.
He didn’t hesitate to give me his blessing to date whoever and whenever I wanted. I knew that the void that Mark’s death left in my life would never be filled the same way that Mark filled it. As I scanned through the results not many of the profiles interested me.
I knew that even as I started dating, I still had to continue to fill my own life with my own positive activities, people, and feelings; I could not put the pressure on someone else to fill Mark’s place—if I did, neither one of us would ever be truly happy. After several pages I started to wonder if I was just being extremely critical because I wasn’t ready.
I was thirty-nine years old when my husband died unexpectedly in his sleep. He was my love, my rock, a crucial part of my life and our children’s future, and in an instant, he was gone.
A few weeks after his death, I received a letter from my insurance company.
After losing a spouse, putting your heart on the line may feel like the last thing in the world you want to do.